It is a busy busy year, no matter in terms of work, friends, family and fotang. However i have just one small brain and 2 short hands. Sometimes it is very hard to find a balance between all. When i busy in work, 3F will not let me alone sometimes. I have only 24 hours per day. Therefore there have so much things that I should do better but I didnt.... Ahha.... !!!
I should spend more times with family and friends... They didnt go to my office, they didnt go to fotang. So we have very limited quality times together. Non of our family member is a vegetarian. So we have to eat outside most of the time during weekdays. Even though it is unhealty and oily, but we left with no choice. Moreover I should do my household chores with more hardworking so that it wouldn't be endless spring clean till now... hahaha !!! I really felt grateful and blessed that i have them all around me so that I can go through all the tests (not sure can pass or not) and survive happily... ^.^
In fotang, I'm just a normal tao member with little faith in Maitreya. For the 2nd half of the class, when i became their friends, they lost control and became enemy. They need more discipline, faith and truth but I didnt shower them enough. We should start the class by bowing to Heavenly mother first. They have became somebody that we are very hard to understand and not a Maitreya Youth or Children that i know. I was hoping that Angels would be around me and help me but it seems like no luck yet... ^.^
We have to work in order to pay off our debts, bills, loan and support our family. With the tough year to secure a job ahead, nobody can guarantee anything. With the very limited time at home, we have to use our own hands to do all household matters as no luxury to hire others. Therefore, it is time for me to let go some and I need times to do things that I should do. Maybe it is part of my destiny. Or maybe it is just a dream will never come true. Anyway, bye good and bad 2008... I just have time to prepare for 2009. Cheers !!